A Love Story

On this Valentine's Day, it seems fitting to share A Love Story… (it is only 2 minutes, make sure to watch until the end before reading 😉 )

For years I have imagined how I would write this post. I would share with the world how long I would been dreaming about this day. How wanted and loved this first baby and first grandchild is. How incredibly grateful and humbled I am to finally become a mother. How I have planned the nursery design in every home I have lived in for the past 10 years, hoping each would be the one I would get to bring my baby home to.

For the past 10 years I have waited patiently, watching cousins and friends and strangers excitedly announce their news on social media. I watched those babies grow up into big brothers and sisters and sent my congratulations as their families grew.

Most of you reading this will share in our happiness, but for some it will be another painful blow. This post is for you.

I know what it is like to watch others celebrate something you want so desperately. I understand the sinking feeling of waking up to yet another Mother's Day. I still remember those first cramps coming on every month like stabbing knives, robbing me of another chance. I lost a marriage within the hopelessness, and I did not know how I could survive either.


Fast forward nearly four years after hitting rock bottom, and everything has changed. I would relive every moment of heartache, all the years “wasted” to be where I am now.


Back then I did not understand—I could have never imagined the detour my life would take to lead me here. This is how and when it was meant to happen.


While it may be a decade later than planned, I would not change this timing for the world. At nearly 34 years in, I feel like life is just beginning. There is so much more of the story to write… for all of us, no matter where we are in our journey.

For those of you struggling, know that one day, there will be a moment where you stop and realize “Aha… so this is why everything happened as it did… it all makes sense now.” I am here on the other side, telling you that everything will be okay. In fact, better than okay—even better than what you've planned.

The pain you feel now does not compare to the joy that is coming. Trust the timing of your life.

Sending a little extra love to the world today,